To some this may be random, to some it may be a shock, to some it may be another meaningless thing I say, to some it may make you say it is about time: I have come to the decision of working on me as an artist. The reason is because I feel I need to finally put myself first. A lot of hot songs have come out because of my production and I don't feel the love is what it is supposed to be. So I am sticking to my core. My core knows who they are, so they are good. A lot of my music I record gets looked over on a constant by my peers, dj's, and others and I am sick of it. I am honestly a bit frustrated about some things, but no one ever me handed me anything in life without me earning it. Its time I show people I'm just as good an artist as my peers are. Although I don't compete, I do know I am capable of doing so. I still will not compete, but just know that my greatness will not be proclaimed and promoted by me. The announcement won't be a big deal to anyone but me. No one cares. Everyone has a blog and a Twitter and a Myspace Facebook or whatever now, so things are not taken as serious as they should be if youre not popular and have a following of people who will publicize your every move on the internet. This is not a tirade or a caps lock filled blog, this is how I feel and I am sticking to it. Im glad I am showing maturity as well writing this because had this been a year or two ago, I would have went on a profanity laced tirade and been visibly upset along with violent. But upset I am not. I just know what has to be done and could care less about anyone's feelings now. The real people will stand out and stick with me, and the fake will be forgotten.
Honestly, music upsets me at times. There is no reason another state should be showing me more love than my state. I am very appreciative that I can reach other states, but I would expect my city to show love first. I have shows, and even my closest people don't show up. I go out to other people's events, and when I have something, they are nowhere to be found. That is in general. Parties, shows, whatever. I get that general text that says come out and have a good time with us, but when I send you a text like that its annoying. Come on. Please. If you can do it, why cant I? This is just a glimpse of the things that irk me and kind of upset me though. The rest will be revealed at the right time. Peace.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Announcement Regarding My Music
Friday, March 6, 2009
I TOLD YALL A TANTRUM IS COMING!
I DON'T KNOW WHO BE READING MY BLOG (I GOT A GRAND TOTAL OF 2 FOLLOWERS BUT THEY DON'T EVEN SHOW FUCKIN LOVE) BUT I'M REAL TIGHT. I'M SITTIN HERE AT THE CHINA CLUB. YEAH I'M BLOGGING IN THE CLUB.
I WAS SUPPOSED TO PERFORMING AT THE CHINA CLUB BUT I COULDN'T GET THE NECESSARY PEOPLE REQUIRED FOR ME TO GET ON STAGE (35 PEOPLE. AND 90% OF THEM I ASKED HAD A BULLSHIT EXCUSE)! SOME PEOPLE GOT PASSES, BUT ALL OTHERS, NIGGAS DON'T SUPPORT MY SHIT. BUT WANNA RUN ME DOWN ASKIN ME IF I'M COMIN TO THEY SHIT.
I'M LOOKING AT THESE PERFORMANCES RIGHT NOW AS WE SPEAK, AND EVERYBODY TALKIN THE SAME THING. HOW THE FUCK YOU TALKING HUSTLIN ON THE STRIP ALONG WITH 99 OTHER NIGGAS? ALL OF YALL AINT GETTIN MONEY. I'M SICK OF THE PHONY RAPS. GETTIN MONEY AND U STILL IN YA MOMS HOUSE ASKIN HER FOR METROCARD FARE. SMFH.
WAIT TILL I FUCKIN GET ON. EITHER PRODUCTION WISE (WHICH IS LOOKING MORE LIKELY) OR RAPPIN I'M GONNA PROVE THAT I FUCKIN BELONG IN THE UPPER ESCHELANT. I KNOW I GOT IT, I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO SHOW THE MUSIC WORLD I DO!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
This Shit Is Fustrating Sometimes
You see that picture up there? Thats what i feel like doing right now! Screaming. Why? Because I feel like I'm supposed to be at a further place in my life right now. Dont get me wrong im not ungrateful, complaining or anything, but AARGH! Shit is going in a cycle. For real. Example: I'm trying to perform tonight at a great venue, and instead of being selfish, I tried to put the team on. THEY DONT WANNA DO IT! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK! NOTHING IS HANDED TO PEOPLE UNLESS YOU GOT A CONNECT! THE RECORD DEAL IS NOT GONNA FALL IN YOUR LAP. YOU HAVE TO WORK FOR IT!!!!! SHIT!
Damn why couldn't life still be like this:
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Speakin My Muthafuckin Mind
I think its really time I started being visible. Being invisible is cool, but sometimes I just wanna pop out and be like what's poppin! I'm on some new shit to others, old shit to me. Fuck it. Conforming to the bullshit is not working for me. Keeping it a hunnid when I black out is not enough. Me being reserved is dead. Because it has gotten me little. Time to be seen for a minute then fade to black again. I have more wisdom now and I really feel like its my time and those along with me!
Gotta shout out NYSD for launching B+C Magazine. They did it. Me being in the magazine is a long shot, because I don't think I meet the criteria lol. I'm not famous enough yet. Don't think for a second I'm not a head nod or a handshake away from it though.
I'm about to fuck this secret society shit up, because its fucking up the game. Wait, it has already. A dude like me gotta take mine because its not gonna be given to me. I've been doing it my whole life. Only thing I was ever handed was a bullshit story. A whole bunch of that was good but's. A whole lot of that's aights. Numerous look overs and politics because of who I was. But it reared me to be the person I am today. I learned from youth not to depend on anyone. I'm going in how I came out. Alone.
You think this shit gonna make me stop though? Hell no! I gotta keep moving no matter what most of these people think. For every person that hate me, there's 5 who don't. Trust.